Life as I know it

Since I've last been on here, I've spent 2 1/2 months in the New Orleans area, staying with my boss, I came back home to train some more with my other boss, and now in 1 1/2 weeks I will FINALLY be out on my own!  This job sure has been an adventure, that's for sure.  I do enjoy getting up to go to work everyday, though.  I really can't complain about my job.  It's not perfect, but what job is?

It always seems like I'm so super focused on my career.  But I am ready to switch my focus to my social/love life.  But, seriously, how do you do that when you don't have many close friends and the ones you do have are married?  And my best friend's idea of hanging out is me going over to her house, eating supper with her, her husband, & her little girl, and watching tv.  I love spending time with them, but I'm tired of just sitting around, doing nothing all the time.  And what's even harder is that I'm not the type to go to bars or anything, so I don't know what I want to go out & do, I just know I want to get out of the house.  I need to get out, meet people.  But how do you do that?  I mean, I'm not going to meet my future husband by sitting around my house or my friend's house.  I'm just stuck in a rut--I'm not going to go out by myself to meet people, but I don't have anyone to go out anywhere with me, everyone I'm around has their own family & significant others. Any ideas on how to get out of this rut??

Lot of happenings.

On Monday, I finished my 1st semester of NP school! I am soo relieved to have that over with. I am 1/3 of the way closer to my degree. Now, I'm trying to enjoy my time off. But I'm staying pretty busy, but at least it isn't writing a paper or studying.

This morning I was woke up by a message from my best friend saying she had a positive home pregnancy test & she was going to the doctor at 8 to confirm it. At almost 9 am she sent me one saying she was definitely pregnant! I am so excited for her and her husband.

But on the other hand, it kinda gets me down. I am still single & no prospects of a boyfriend, and I want to get married & start a family so bad! I guess in a way you could say I'm envious of her & her life, but I really don't. I mean in so many ways I'm so extremely blessed. I have wonderful parents and great sisters, and the world's most awesome nephews & niece. But there's still something missing. I feel pathethic & desperate because I feel this way.

In my head I know that God has everything in control, but it's just hard because I can't see His plans, & I have no patience. I just don't know what to do.

I seem to have a problem "crushing" on every guy I meet just about...which is beyond pathetic. But I dunno...I obsess over things like that & I really wish I didn't.

While I was in clinical, a single guy came in & the girls that work at the clinic made the comment that we'd make a good couple and one of the girls was like I'll hook you up and stuff, well I finally told her she could play matchmaker. I went back the next week & she was like I never called him, but I will and got my number to give him. Well I am done with clinicals now and I still don't know if she ever tried to play matchmaker & instead of forgetting about it, I can't help but think about it...it's driving me crazy...I just wish I could forget that she ever said anything about playing matchmaker and then if he called it'd be a surprise & if he didn't it wouldn't bother me because I wouldn't even miss it. I mean, in this case, it wasn't like I like the guy, I don't really even know him...I mean he was cute enough, but really don't know him, it'd just be nice to get to know him...if that makes any sense. I know no one else will read this more than likely, but it's just nice to get it out there.