Tips??

I really want to start blogging more, but I'm not really good at it. I'm not sure what to write about and stuff. HELP!

I need tips and ideas please!

Lot of happenings.

On Monday, I finished my 1st semester of NP school! I am soo relieved to have that over with. I am 1/3 of the way closer to my degree. Now, I'm trying to enjoy my time off. But I'm staying pretty busy, but at least it isn't writing a paper or studying.

This morning I was woke up by a message from my best friend saying she had a positive home pregnancy test & she was going to the doctor at 8 to confirm it. At almost 9 am she sent me one saying she was definitely pregnant! I am so excited for her and her husband.

But on the other hand, it kinda gets me down. I am still single & no prospects of a boyfriend, and I want to get married & start a family so bad! I guess in a way you could say I'm envious of her & her life, but I really don't. I mean in so many ways I'm so extremely blessed. I have wonderful parents and great sisters, and the world's most awesome nephews & niece. But there's still something missing. I feel pathethic & desperate because I feel this way.

In my head I know that God has everything in control, but it's just hard because I can't see His plans, & I have no patience. I just don't know what to do.

I seem to have a problem "crushing" on every guy I meet just about...which is beyond pathetic. But I dunno...I obsess over things like that & I really wish I didn't.

While I was in clinical, a single guy came in & the girls that work at the clinic made the comment that we'd make a good couple and one of the girls was like I'll hook you up and stuff, well I finally told her she could play matchmaker. I went back the next week & she was like I never called him, but I will and got my number to give him. Well I am done with clinicals now and I still don't know if she ever tried to play matchmaker & instead of forgetting about it, I can't help but think about it...it's driving me crazy...I just wish I could forget that she ever said anything about playing matchmaker and then if he called it'd be a surprise & if he didn't it wouldn't bother me because I wouldn't even miss it. I mean, in this case, it wasn't like I like the guy, I don't really even know him...I mean he was cute enough, but really don't know him, it'd just be nice to get to know him...if that makes any sense. I know no one else will read this more than likely, but it's just nice to get it out there.